If you are like me, sometimes you feel unworthy of the blessings that Christ has promised and often gives.

What did I do to deserve his love and kindness? What did I do to deserve his blessings?

The truth is, I do not deserve any of it. He chooses to give his blessing to his children. That is what a good father does. He lavishes his children with love and attention. He just wants them to know that no matter what he is there and that he loves them.

This was hard for me, since as a child my earthly father did not lavish me with love or attention. In fact, it was the exact opposite. He left and he did not lavish me with anything except his exit.

When you grow up in a fatherless home things are different. you see the friends with the dads and families at events, and you are left with emptiness and loneliness. There could be some resentments there or even fear.

When I was growing up, I was in church with my family and I knew that God loved me and that he sent Jesus to die for me, I knew that. Did I know that? I got older and things happened in my life and I forgot what God had done for me, somewhere I lost that child that knew what he done and who knew that it was a sacrifice and I would do everything I could to hold on to it, but as an adult I let go and I forgot what it felt like to trust him fully.

The past two years God has been slowly revealing to me that he never walked away from me. He never left me, and that he has been here waiting for me to come home and tell him that I missed him and that I messed up and that I am sorry.

Just like the father in the bible with the prodigal son, he welcomed me with open arms. No shame, no regrets, only love and mercy. I have not been the best daughter, when my mom died, I was so angry with him. So mad that a life so precious to me was taken, I did not see how important she was to him.

She was ready to go home; I was not ready to let her go. He knew, he was there, and he has walked with me every step of the way. He sent the perfect people into my life to comfort and encourage me. Even when I feel like I am at my worst and I feel like I can’t go on he is always there to pick me up, set my feet on solid ground and tell me that my purpose remains.

So, I am not deserving of his blessings, but he will give them because he loves me and because he is always more than enough for me and he wants me to have

EVERYTHING

Jerimiah 29:11

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

My future is brighter because I have faith that the father Loves his children, and he is good to me.