Who are you when no one is looking?

Who am I apart from performance?

My Church is doing a corporate fast for the next 21 days and a friend helped by making journals with reflection questions for each day.

Today’s question, who am I apart from Performance? I have to admit that I looked up what that meant, I have always believed that I was who I am all the time.

Today, this made me think. Who do I perform for, for whom am I seeking validation? Do I post on social media for likes or is what I say reflect who I really am. I actually sat down and wrote out who i am when no one sees, I think we should all take time to reflect on WHO ARE WE WHEN NO ONE IS AROUND, ARE WE THE CHRISTIAN WE PROCLAIM TO BE

Are we walking or driving past the beggars on the street, do we judge them on what they will do with the money we leave? Do we give and walk away, or do we stop and offer a prayer?

Truth is the world has gotten scary, and they want us afraid because if we stop praying for each other, if we stay angry at “the man” for taking our rights, for deporting those who came, but didn’t do it their way, we keep ourselves bound in chains and sitting right where Satan wants us, divided.

what would it look like if we did not do what the world tells us to. What would it look like if we did not perform, what would it look like to seek Gods likes and shares instead of that TikTok influencer you follow?

What would it look like if we put our phones and cameras down to actually enjoy the time, we have instead of forever encapsulating it on Facebook to come and remind us later of what we missed.

I am a woman who loves her husband, no matter how silly or dumb people of the world thing that is. I love him a billion percent and I am head over heels in love with ONLY him.

I love my grandchildren, even when its noisy and my house is a disaster, I am losing my mind because they fight or they cry, but then just for a moment time slows down and they want me to hold them and love them right where they are and I do. Soon they are gone, the house is quiet and I take a moment and I soak up the quiet, for when they come back, I know I will need the reminder

I love to sing and dance; I love the moments when I am alone and I can sing. I love to cuddle on the couch and watch crime tv, I love my bearded dragon and my dog.

I love to clean but hate to clean up after grown men (my teenage boys) I love the smell of fresh pine, and crisp snow. I love to feel the crisp cold air and smell it early in the morning. Do not get that a lot in Texas so I savor it when we do.

I love to be outside, I love to see all the beauty that God created, we always go where we can enjoy all that the Lord has given us to see in the world.

I want to adopt every kid that I see or hear about that does not have a mom. It breaks my heart to see or hear of any child that has been harmed by a parent, I was placed on this earth to be a mom and to be a protector of children. I may not be the best at it, but I do my best to do whatever it is that God has placed in my path to do.

I love the way tequila, lime and salt taste together, I am not a drinker but every now and then I just want a drink, and it’s not for being drunk or anything crazy, it is like drinking sweet tea, I do not do that often because it is too sweet, for me it’s a treat to eat or drink something once every 6 months that I like the way it taste, but could not see myself doing it daily.

I am very creative and I love to plan and decorate, I love to throw dinner parties, but I am not as rich as I would like to be and really cannot do this other than every now and then for a birthday party. I would so do one monthly and it would be FANCY, if I had the finances to do it.

I LOVE to bug my husband; I ninja kick the bathroom door open daily with him in there. He laughs and calls me a dork, it makes him happy that it makes me happy so it’s a win, win, if for any moment it made him angry, I would stop, maybe….

I love all my kids equally, the think I have a favorite, but I don’t, well maybe the grandkids are my favorite because they get to go home with the parents 🙂

I love GOD

I did not list God last because he is the least, I listed him last, because he is the greatest of all of the things about me, because apart from God I am nothing and I have nothing. I know that for him I do not have to perform, for him he loves me just as I am. I did not have to get better or be better he loved me so much he gave me his son

Jesus

I love Jesus, I love the holy spirt. I love them all.
My life is forever better because of a choice that was made before I was ever a blip in this world.

God, seeing the sin of man in the beginning he sent a great flood to destroy everything he created; he wiped it out and started over with Noah and everything on the ark. Listen God was like I brought you into this world and I will take you out! and he did.

The second time, God was like what do I have to do with you kids, I am trying to keep you out of hell, but you just are not listening, so instead of forcing, he gave us a choice. He sent Jesus to die in our place, go to hell, took the keys, told the devil I will kick your butt later but for now I got work to do. With that the divide that happened in the garden was no longer and we can choose to follow and live for Christ or not and go to Hell

Simple end of story

I choose Jesus

What do you choose? Where do you want to be?

Who are you when no one is looking, who are you when you think no one can see

Who do you want to be?